Worse night for mommy

On Thursday night...u were giving mommy the hardest night for the first time. U slept soundly in mommy's arm when it was bedtime but once mommy put u down..u were awake. Then mommy carried u up again and u slept again in my arm but again when I put u down. ..again u awake. ..something like it jie jie...it lasted from 12am till almost 2 am.  Mommy was tired and losing my patience. You started cranky but u just couldn't sleep. Mommy tried patting...humming...dancing...pacify in u using my breast but u suck n pull..suck n pull...mommy shaked harder n harder...getting more n more angry. ..started handling u more rough. For the first time...mommy is angry at you...until 3.15am...mommy couldn't take it...brought u down to kakak but the minute u reached downstairs. ..u were quiet...so I put u in bouncing net and u were playing by urself until 4am.  Then u make noise again....mommy then brought u up...and u refused to sleep again. Imagine from 12am till 4am..mommy is exhausted getting very impatience n angry. Put in bb cot n on the musical mobile for u. U played till 4.15am..finally u were tired and mommy carried and shake u to sleep. Around 4.45am. .u finally fell asleep.  Put u down and mommy were fast asleep too. But not long
.u woke up n started crying again...mommy looked at the clock. .it was just 5.15am. U just slept that maybe 30mins. Mommy carried n shake u very hard but u kept crying. Finally mommy brought u down to kakak and let kakak handle u. Mommy came upstairs feeling so upset and tired. Mommy cried....

U fell asleep fast on kakak arm and half hour later...brought u up n u sleep from then. Mommy knew that u might not be feeling too well that's why u couldn't sleep that night. But mommy just couldn't think properly after so many hours of making u sleep.  Mommy felt so helpless..mommy cannot wake daddy up coz daddy has work the next day.mmoreover u never wanted daddy. So no point waking him up.

For the first time..mommy felt so angry at u. Sorry annabel if mommy made u feel uncomfortable that night. Sorry if mommy has treated u so rough that night...sorry if mommy has said or thought something nasty about u. Mommy was just too tired. Mommy loves u very much. OK?

Hospital ER again

Last Friday night...daddy and grandparents n gor gor n jie jie went to Starbucks. .we stayed at home. U were sleeping but when u woke up...mommy saw u breathing with ur mouth..hee.haa..hee.haa. .mommy felt something not right. Then we decided to spray ur nose. Suddenly u struggle for breathe for about 30 secs . Mommy n kakak were so worried. Immediately mommy called daddy home. We monitored u for a while n saw around ur mouth has red red dots...again we worried it could be allergies. ..immediately we sent u to hospital ER. Doc checked u said u r fine. Just that flu is coming. Just spray the nose if necessary.  Costs daddy rm50.  At least we know ur lungs is clear.

Annabel...u broke our record of going to the ER n hospital in such young age.  But better be safe than sorry...again least u r fine.

Thigh get caught in between cot bars

U gave mommy a scare just now. Mommy needed to go to toilet so leave u in the baby cot. Mommy heard some noise..luckily mommy came out and saw ur thigh get stuck in between 2 bars. It was above ur knee level . Mommy tried to take out for u but it was stuck...mommy so scared n quickly called kakak up. ..luckily later mommy managed to take it out for u...phew...

2nd time flu

Sorry annabel...I think ur jie jie has passed the flu virus to us..mommy has it worse and you are no exception.  So far..u r having runny nose...sneezing and phlegmy sound. Mommy is sneezing badly with running nose. Before that mommy was having some sore throat too.

Mommy praying that you will recover soon...mommy has been trying to give you the freshest breast milk as I can...hope that my antibodies can help u fight with the virus. Hope both of us recover soon. We are now sleeping under the fan without air conditioning.

4 months immunization

Today mommy bring you for ur 4 months checkup. Mommy delayed for 1 week coz very reluctant to send u for the jab. Everything is well for you. You are growing well...now weight 6.59kg.  Finally reaching the 50th percentile marking. Towards the evening around 5pm...u started having fever and getting cranky. Mommy fed u fever med at 5.30pm and 11.30pm before sleep. U couldn't sleep well n you are wide awake at 3.30am now..

Looking for breast

It is so funny that you know how to look for mommy's breast while I am carrying you for nap. You will wiggle your body side way and your move ur mouth n head towards mommy's breast. You will also open ur mouth n show the sign to suck when touches mommy's breast. Such precious moment for us.